On A Happier Note

Lately I've been watching all this hooplah about Britney Spears. I guess.. she's BACK!

I haven't really been a fan, she's not the type of music I listen too, cause I can't get into her nasal passage singing.. BUT she can dance her ass off though. So I can giver her props there. And I do love a good dancer.

I do feel for the girl.. she's had a shitty few years, but a couple babies, and a tredmill and she's back and ready to go!

The poparazi and the smut magz did her and her weaves soo bad, but now she's lookin pretty hot again. I was watching the MTV's : Britney- For the Record, and she does seem a lil reserved and unhappy, but maybe that's how they wanted her to seem?

Either way.. no woman needed to be treated the way she was. It does all lie in the choices we make, and alot (me included) don't seem to always make the right ones.

Hopefully this time she can stay on top..

Dilemma of the Heart

For the past week I've been helping a close girlfriend of mine get through a horrendous time in her life. She's been dating this guy since August.

She loves him.. he said he loved her. So he moved in with her after leaving his ex-wife. They have fun, take trips, have great sex, get tattoos of each other..

She says he is her absolute soul mate. Satisfies the mind and the body.

I had the opportunity of meeting him a few times. My stomach said something different, but my heart wanted to feel all happiness for my friend. So I did.

The days went by, everyday life settled in, and the love well ran dry.

First call was like.. "I had to take down, (pics) and get rid of all my guy friends, and no more playing volley-ball, guys are there and he'll get jealous."

Then..

"We're getting married in January, and I'm trying to have his baby. He loves me so much!"

Next..

"We had an argument last night.. he tricked me into saying something I didn't want to say, and he said he'll leave me, that I'm an ugly bitch, and a bad mother".. e.t.c

And..

"I didn't wake him up in time, and iron his clothes, so he was mad, he was gonna throw a bowl of cereal at my face!"

This was just the beginning. After many attempts of explaining that this was not the "one", and that she was being controlled & abused she finally reached out. He was still talking to his ex-wife on a regular basis. My friend called and retrieved some information on him... he was nothing like he ever built the image to be.

Per the advice of the ex, she submitted for a restraining order.

Under a restraining order you must not talk, or have any type of communication whatsoever. Well, her heart failed her and she broke it. She called him and wanted
to talk about why she did it. (because she was scared for her and her child)

An abuser can be a great manipulator. She told him everything, how she had been talking to this ex. He told her everything that the ex said was a lie. The psychopath mind of an abuser switched back on to the lover side and convinced her that everything everybody has told her was a lie, and that he was the best thing in her life, and that he would come back ONLY.. under some circumstances:

1) She write a letter to the court office annulling the restraining order by saying she was on drugs and reported false information
2) She write a letter to her family saying she was on drugs and that everything was a lie and that she emotionally hurt him and abused her own daughter.

Absolute control.

She said no.

He put it on her again.. they met up. Her heart once again failed, and she gave in and now they're back together.

After changed locks, court documents, fights with the ex-husband, relocation and ridicule from family and friends..

She let him win again. How come the urge of love is so strong that no matter what kind of shit its made up as, they will still take abusers back?

Fucking ridiculous.

The Pack Leader

I am sooo the pack leader in my house.

We've had our 2 year old doggie Quincy almost 2 months now. I've been teaching him EVERYTHING! With learning comes discipline. So that means I'm doing all the naughty discipline stuff too. My husband just gets to benefit from it with rewards & treats.

I noticed the other day hubbs told Quincy to sit. But he said it like "pplleease sit." I told him.. "Hey! you can't ask him to sit, you demand him!" Of course he still didn't get it, so I had to show em. Well, he didn't want to yell at him I guess? I don't yell at my dog, but I can get firm. Then Quincy knows I mean business, after which, he gets a treat & a belly rub down.

Quincy is with both of us equally, so one shouldn't take over the other, but it seems as though it has. We get in the car together and stop at ANY FAST FOOD RESTAURANT, and I notice he barks at the people in the window helping us. They get scared of course, and I have to tell him to "QUIET!!". My husband.. tries to make him sit. I'm thinkin.. 'What ARE you doing?'

So, my husband needs to grow some doggy balls. Not literally, but don't be scared to get firm. I told him that this is just pre-lookinto what it's gonna be like when we have kids?

He said it wasn't, but whatever. I'm, gonna be the disciplinary with him being the good guy!? I don't think so. I can't & will not do everything. Ya know...

We watch Cesar on The Dog Whisper all the time. I'm pretty keen to dogs anyhow, but when my husband comes home to his surprise I've left like 80% of space with 30 episodes recorded on the DVR. Just.. waiting for him. Cesar's doggy balls are huge. So maybe hubbs can get a hint er two. If I'm lucky.

She Bloggs About Blogging.

Maybe I'm not quite getting the blog idea down? I don't have interesting stuff as all of you to blog about?. I think my life might be pretty boring.

I create a post... ::whistling:: "Doo ta doo dooo" What.. to blog about...?

I refuse to do a rundown list of my day's events, post pictures of the crap I took around the house, or complain blog after complain blog.

I do commend all you creative geniuses who are so witty, fun and good at this.

I like to read, and I like to write, maybe I'll write some short stories.. but would I want to read some short stories all the time? No. I like reading real life smut, in short paragraphs. lol

I could really get personal, but who wants to make a fool of themselves? Maybe my fooling is really funny. Like my impatient and extremely high libido. Yes, I'm one of those. But it is pretty funny.

I'm just gonna start posting some interesting randomness about me.. My first intention was to stimulate my creative writing that I used to do all the time, but that has somehow taken another direction.

I dunno..

I'm still new, not gonna beat myself up too bad. It is what you make it right?

Yea! right. (lol I just answered myself)

All Vegas'ed Out

Vacation spot's don't come easy nor cheap in my house. Usually, I try to go and have a fun time out of town at a relatives spot. Vacation & visit the fam too! Well, my mom's side of the family currently resides in Las Vegas, NV. I've been there a billion in a half times. I've been my junior year in highschool, my 21st birthday, again at 23. Geese. How many times can you see the lights, Vegas sign & a volcano on fire


(which was under construction last time I went! =0() My husband has yet to visit Vegas, nor my grandma & uncles. So therefore, sometime in my life, I still have to take him. Last Febuary my bff turned 25 and she wanted to party it up there, so we went. After all the drinks, no wait lines at all the bars & clubs (Drai's, is my FAV btw) I am honestly spent on Vegas. There has to be some equally, just as fun places for everyone to go to have a great time!? My mom just flew there last week and she's bummed because I didn't want to go and be with her & my grandma. I should of went, I miss my grandma, but I can't stand to go anymore. Another friend called me up a month ago trying to get a group together through a travel agency to guess what.. "Go to VEGAS!!".. ah. vegas. I know there are some people out there that are still totally enamored by Vegas, but after awhile.. it gets kinda old.

What are some other cool cheap vaca party spots out there to visit?

Considering I'm in KS, and can't take the "L" up to Manhattan, I'm kinda stuck on the money side of traveling. Vegas usally has deals for days to visit, like no other, but it almost makes you want to spend the extra dollar for some difference.

Ya know?

History Breaking for Dreamers Galore

Barack Obama is the President of the United States!!

Who said dreams in America couldn't come true? I did, until now.

I'm positively emotional for me, my family now & then, and the world!

All my hopes & faith's isn't in one man, lets not go & get it twisted, I believe in God for all my personal values, but Obama's dreams offered opportunity. If I had a son tonight, I know he CAN grow up to be whatever he wants to be with NOTHING holding him back. We have a long shot still, but what a great example we have to work with.

Thanks B! For changing the world.

<3

Yea Yea.. More Voting Stuff

I'm tired of it, I know all ya'll are too.. But I did it today. I hate politics. And usually rid myself of it. But this time I couldn't help it.. wasn't it so passionate this time? It was more than just a race to command the US for me. Personal Independence. My husband and I went early 5:15am to make it before there were any lines, to our surprise we were the 2nd couple there. I guess all the house wives and soccer moms didn't make it out as early as I thought. Although we do have advance voting, so maybe that's why they were absent. lol (I got love for the house wives and ponytail swanggin ladies! Geeeze! <3) I didn't want to advance vote, I wanted to do it the day of. Years ago being a woman I wouldn't be able too, and only 138 years later that I being of color could do the same, really 43 years w/o all the shitty stipulations they made up : but that's another story:.

I'm so happy to be me today. Feels good to be proud of who you are, instead of always the conceived opposite.

Enjoy our early morning sunrise: and Journey to Freedom, one step at a time.